About Me

I’m a  Canadian female (early 20’s) struggling to overcome an eating disorder. I chose to “recover” 2 months ago after denying for 6 years that I had a problem. When I was in high school, I was anorexic for a short period (only a year, thank goodness), the anorexia turned into binge eating, which turned into compulsive exercise to drop the weight. I now continue to compulsively over-exercise, restrict my food intake depending on whether I worked out/how long I worked out, I am stuck in rigid food routines/eating habits that affect my social life, work life, and relationships. Over the past two years my habits had become increasingly worse, and I came to the realization that life is just not worth living when each day is the same, and (food and exercise) routines control my life. I am not at a drastically low weight, most people consider me to be pretty “fit” (albeit, unhealthy – though only I know that, along with my fiancee and therapist), but my obsession with control, exercise and having the perfect body rules my life. (About to mention a number range so stop reading if this is triggering for you) I am 5’7 and between 118-123 pounds (not giving you an exact number, just a range – precise numbers are quite triggering). I’ve been working with a therapist for two months now, and she is helping me immensely, I am in full “recovery” mode – but, as with any recovery, ED still controls the majority of my thoughts. I am so so driven to recovery and rid myself of ED, but I realize it’s going to take a lot of time and hard work. I started this blog as a means to help my recovery, to make my (totally irrational) thoughts “public” and gain insight and help from the blogging community. I’ve been inspired by several “recovery’ blogs I read daily and felt I should give it a try myself.  I WILL RECOVER!

Thanks for reading!


1 Comment Add your own

  • 1. Jenny  |  December 13, 2008 at 4:59 pm

    Congrats on taking control and reaching out in recovery. I know how scary it can be when you feel alone in your disorder, but I hope that you’ve come to realize that you are NOT alone at all!! Thanks for sharing, and good luck with the blog! 🙂

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